1 Corinthians 13:4-8
New International Version (NIV)
(Source: ayoxannna)
Thanks to everyone that came out today, and the early birthday wishes and the early birthday presents.
Not only do I want to thank you guys for that, but I want to thank you guys for being there for me. Every single day or time I need you guys. There are some of you that I rarely get a chance to…
So i woke up at 11, did laundry and then called up LAND to go to the birthday party. I saw Dennis and Long; Dennis was wearing his new Miami Heat jersey! After that we played ball at Leif and waited for the rest of them to come. Warren’s mom drove us to Sake, and we got there around 4. Soon after, Michelle, Ada, Vanny, Angela and Eddie came, and some of Vanessa’s friends and we started to eat. 13 people, the f man! The bill was like, $250 x_x We went to mcdonald’s after and took pictures along the way, so I had a really great time. I’m surprised no one threw up today! We ended up taking the train to New Utrecht Av and then walked back to 100fun. I didn’t get to go, but that’s coool. I’m kind of sore from everything but overall, it was a great day. But in all, Happy birthday to my bro Dennis! it’s been tough times in LAND but you ma nigga, you know? Happy early 16th! wow this was a random post, i didn’t even know what i was writing…
*not a full group picture, but these are some of the greatest people i’ve ever met.
There’s a part of me wanting to reconnect with them, but there’s another part of me wanting to just let it be. I do miss them, but they’ve found better people to talk to. Often times, I blame myself for drifting from them. I see people drift from one another but mainly from lack of interest in one another or because of an argument. I really wish I didn’t drift from so many people.
(Source: euniceepark)
I remember how we used to talk like there was no tomorrow. I remember how every thing you said brought a smile to my face. How every conversation lasted for hours. Your good morning messages used to start my morning, and I always ended up falling asleep to your goodnight ones. I remember when my heart used to race, and how I would smile like an idiot out of nowhere just because I remembered something you said. Every memory we had together, I remember every single one of them.
The thing about life is that you’re going to get hurt. You’re going to have emotional nights and cry yourself to sleep for hours. You’re going to suffer some kind of heartbreak, and some kind of loss. But you will also have those moments where you heal. Those moments are the best. You feel like you smile for the first time again. You feel like you’re alive again. Life just kind of restarts.
That’s what I will be very soon. Simply because I think it’s stupid to always keep my head in the past. Reminiscing, remember, recalling, I needed to do all those things. It was what helped me get through those memories. But that phase is over. I don’t need to keep having these flashbacks of what…
So today was a nice day, the whole day I was looking forward to the celebration, even though it’s like, 2 weeks late… basically we went to Ritz to eat and then went to karaoke. It was reeeeally fun. We ate at Ritz and everyone ordered their own thing, then karaoke was fun too! We stayed for nearly three hours, and we just sung our asses off. I think midway through the party, I felt that vibe that we were still physically a bit closer but spiritually separated. I think we’re starting to get there, back to the way it was. We sang a lot of songs, Dennis and the other guys grinded on the strip pole, and ate cake. I honestly felt drunk after everything and I still feel a little dead after tonight. I think we all went a little all out when we all sang. It was pretty funny when they all tried to pull me up to the table after numerous attempts but I finally gave in when I had to sing Birthday Sex with Vanessa. I don’t think I’ve ever felt so awkward and embarrassed in my entire life. After that we sang some more and ate some cake. The cake was really delicious too! Soon after that it was like 9:45 and we all went home. I honestly didn’t feel as camerashy. Maybe it was my formal look. loljk i’m still ugly though, whatever. This was definitely the best night of the year so far and I look forward to more events like these. 
Sometimes things feel like they’re never going to get better, that you’ve hit rock bottom, and that everything’s going to go downhill from there. But maybe it’s just God’s way of telling you that he has something better planned for you, so never lose hope.
